It’s weird. I graduated from Towson and I’m about to buy a house. I have a good job, even though I feel that I’m not using all of my abilities to do the manual labor, I’m not too sad about where I work.

My main problem is that I need a woman in my life. All my life I’ve had girlfriends that I was happy with, but about 4 years ago I went through a terrible time that, looking back, has cursed me. I was dating this beautiful girl named Jen from Australia. We dated for over a year and we were very happy together, but when I came back from Australia and she stayed, I cheated on her. I told her about it and when she wanted to stay together, I said that I wanted to be single.

This is the reason I feel cursed. The girl I cheated on her with gave me genital warts and didn’t tell me she had it and she was really messed up in the head. She cheated on me numerous times and just caused so much pain in my life that I was very depressed and took the illness straight to heart, vowing not to give it to someone else in the hurtful way it was given to me. I didn’t have sex for two years. Read the rest of this entry »

Ive been getting depressed more and more every month. I have been like this since October and my counselor wont come see me anymore.

I feel that it’s mostly because of my sister. Ever since she moved back, she treats me extremely bad. She’ll tell me that I’m stupid, I should die, and that I’m useless. She yells at me for some of the most stupidest stuff and its like every time it just gets worse.

I don’t know what to do anymore. My mom tells me that I just take everything to heart and that she doesn’t really mean all those things, but it causes me to feel like suicide is my only option. Even at school I get ignored and I do dress different and I listen to all that rock n roll, but to me its no reason to judge me. Read the rest of this entry »

Its been two years since I stopped going to the therapist for depression. I just stopped going because I was sure I am fine now. And I am fine. I am confident now unlike before. And don’t hold on to sad feelings forever like before. I know I probably won’t be depressed again.

I still feel envious of my sister for having so many friends Read the rest of this entry »

The power of the mind continues to amaze me especially when it comes to my mood.

If I have a good mind set with positive thoughts abounding, then I feel as though I can conquer and do anything. On the other hand, if I let negative thoughts take hold it’s not long before I feel as though life is awful and I’ll never reach my goals.

I believe that one of the character traits of really successful, well adjusted people is the ability to control their thinking. These people have learned how to stay in a positive mind set and they affirm themselves from within. Even when bad things happen to them or to their business ventures, they are able to maintain a positive outlook on things. Read the rest of this entry »

Are you tired of the Christmas ads yet? You know the ones that show happy families together for the holidays, having the best time of their year, not a care in the world, and surrounded by those that they love and love them.

Unfortunately, this is not the reality of  many  people  during the holiday season. Many will be alone, hurting, and depressed. The holidays only seem to magnify the emotional pain that people live with. Why is this, you may ask? It’s because the commercialism of Christmas starts in October with advertisements and movies that depict these perfect families and preach the message that the holidays are all about being with family and those you love. Read the rest of this entry »