I Loved Her But Now Not Feeling the Same

So I met my girlfriend about a year ago, we started dating and both really like each other. I soon noticed that I was having feelings for her, this was the first time I’d ever had those feelings. After about 4 months she started being very distant and would ignore me. I asked her a few times what was up and she just had excuses about how work was stressing her out. A couple weeks later she said that the real reason was that she wants to get out of this town and live other places and that would mean leaving me behind.

So after another month of me trying to stick it out, the pain of just being ignored all the time was too much and I told her to make a decision about us. We agreed that for now a breakup would be the best thing. Well I was not prepared for how much this would hurt me, the pain that I felt was undescribable. The hurt that I felt while she was ignoring me was bad, but the pain of not having her was unbearable. I spent the next 2 months absolutely miserable and depressed. It was a hurt that I never felt before. She did try texting me through out this time saying how she missed me, but never that she wanted to get back together and that just made things worse.

After a while I decided that I needed to get over her and move on. Well I finally got to the point where I wasn’t feeling miserable everyday and was starting to enjoy life again. So after about 2 months she calls me one day and wants to talk. She tells me that she made a big mistake and she realized while we were apart how much she missed me and wanted to be with me. We talked out the other issues and got back together. I was so happy and that emptiness inside was now gone, everything was perfect. She had even eluded that she was in love with me without actually saying it. Well after a couple weeks the feelings that I had for her were gone.

That strong desire to want to be with her was not there. I just don’t get it. What is going on? How could those feelings just go away? Will they come back? And now I know how she feels about me and if I tell her how I’m feeling it will break her heart. I don’t want her to feel how I did. I still want to be with her and I think she is a great person, but what happened to those feelings I had for her? What should I do?

-James