Should I Stay and Fight or Move On?

I am a 22 year old gay male and I’m in love with another 22 year old gay male. I have been in love with him for the past 5 months and he knows it, he admitted to me numerous times that he is in love with me, but he can’t commit.

He was in a relationship for 2 years with a man who cheated on him with his best friend, but the story doesn’t end there, they broke up in August 2010. He was very depressed and was confused and curious, so he slept with a woman and then she fell pregnant with his child. This confused him about his sexuality, until he met me. He decided to raise the child with the woman because they are friends and she is in love with him.

We started dating and she accepted it, but he left me because he felt that she is suffering and he must suffer as well. I decided that I was going to fight for him, because I know he is in love with me. He kept on pushing me away and when I decided to leave, he pulled me back in, but when I got too close again, he pushed me away again.

I tried to move on, but I couldn’t do that to myself, him, or the other guy that became involved. He accused me of cheating although nothing happened with the other guy and we weren’t together. We reconnected after that and the pregnant girl was furious because he started to trust me again. He fought to be with me and everything was going well between us.

His child was born now in September 2011 with some medical concerns and I was in the picture the whole time, talking about the future. I suggested that we make our relationship official,but then he said the we weren’t dating, we were just having fun. He is afraid of a relationship and now he is ignoring me and I don’t know why? I feel like running away, but that would mean that I’m not fighting for what I believe in, I believe in me and him! I just don’t know how to fight anymore?

-AJ

Dear AJ,

It sounds like there has been nothing but drama with this guy. Are you sure you weren’t filming a reality show? All relationships require some work, but the majority of the time good relationships should just be easy. If there is always drama, confrontation, anger, etc then I think the relationship probably will never give you what you’re looking for. which is most likely a stable relationship with someone you can build a future life together with.

I think in this case you should stop fighting and move on. There’s probably a great guy out there for you, but you’ve been so wrapped up in this head case, that you haven’t been able to find him. I know we can’t often help who we fall in love with, but we still can make a choice as to who we are in relationship with and who is a healthy choice for a relationship. Think of the bigger picture here and what you want for your future. If it’s not a bunch of drama, uncertainty, and heartache then move on and find someone that will make a relationship easy and enjoyable.

All the best,

Ted

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